As of right now, hybridpenis is on a hiatus.
I’m not deleting,
but I’m also not sure if I plan on returning.
For those wondering, this isn’t just about the shit story telling that went on in the Originals pilot. This is something that has been on my mind the last 2-3 months. Rping on here had become my worst fear- feeling like a chore. It became less about having fun and enjoying a hobby, and more about pleasing others.
I felt backed into a corner. If I replied to one thread- people were angry I didn’t reply to another. If I missed a starter, people were under the impression I didn’t care or was ignoring them. Heaven forbid I forget to draft something! I’ve become bitter about this whole RPing thing as you can tell, and I used to never feel this way. I don’t blame any of you for this- I blame myself. I knew my limits- I knew when I had far too many verses and threads to keep up with, but for fear of rejecting or hurting anyone’s feelings, I kept going. I started making tons of excuses or reasons as to why I couldn’t reply to people, when the honest answer I should’ve given to you all is: I just don’t want to anymore. I don’t have energy, time, or the muse to delve into my character.
But yes, the straw that broke the camel’s back was the atrocious pilot. I felt disconnected from this character for a while, but after seeing the latest episode, I keep thinking to myself: “Well shit, where the fuck have I been?”. I was getting anons, curious as to what happened (most polite, some a bit rude, but rightfully so as I had been slacking). I kept hearing about other blogs shit talking me (blogs I’ve never even heard of, followed, or talked to). Lets be honest: I suck. I started off this blog as a joke (HaHa, Klaus never gets laid- I’m gonna make a blog where he does nothing but)- and then I find out people actually like my shit sense of humor (believe me, that’s flattering). I’m amazed of the support I have received the last few months- which makes distancing myself from this blog incredibly hard. I have made so many friends and have had more than my fair share of laughs. The last thing I want to do is disappoint anyone, but as of the lately, I’ve been doing nothing but any way.
I hope you all understand this, and please, don’t take this post personally. I love you all! <3
If you need to reach me, feel free to aim me @ sillyceili. You can also contact me on this blog as well.
Anonymous said:Yes but that's just the backdoor story. Which means it's just the beginning of the story, not the middle of it. A story always has to have a beginning.
If the writers wanted to ensure the viewers stayed to watch the story unfold, that was the WRONG way to go about it. The plot shows nothing promising to me, and it isn’t something I want to find out more about. I feel devastated that I have no interest in watching the Originals when I am such a huge Klaus fan (or was, I haven’t decided). It didn’t even feel like Klaus was the star of his own show because of Hayley’s plot. It was just hard to watch.
The only person I truly feel bad for is Joseph. He is seriously so excited about his very own TV show! He is so kind to his fans and he is SO talented! But the writers are just screwing him over! People didn’t ditch the show because they HATE him, because they HATED where the story was going, not the actor!
Anonymous said:Thanks for abandoning me when you said you wouldn't.
Woah, anon. Let’s get something straight. Last time I checked, this was MY blog, meaning I can do whatever the hell I want. I’m not abandoning anybody- at least, I don’t want to. I simply have no desire/muse to play this character any longer, and last night was the final nail in the coffin. Besides, you’re not the only one I’d be leaving behind- which does break my heart because I used to be so fucking happy with this blog. Now, I don’t feel that anymore.
I apologize to all 700 of you that are following me, but I don’t see myself returning to rp on this blog ever again.
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